It's hard because you don't want to let the beautiful castle you built together crumble like a mere sandcastle in the waves. You want to preserve it and savour everything. It's hard because you don't want all that effort to just go to waste.
But in history, all the fallen cities rebuilt themselves. Look at recently - Japan's tsunami and earthquake hit. Did they moan and leave it be? No. They efficiently went back to rebuilding it, and probably made it better. Yes, there is still the aftermath, the parts where there are garish reminders of disaster, but all in all, back up.
Nothing will be perfect - not even the castle you built. It's only 'perfect' in your eyes because you are biased towards it. Someone else from the outside might see the imperfections that you don't see. It's all subjective.
Letting go is never easy - but when you have a certain option, the silver lining in the cloud, seize it. Grab it and work on that. Build a new castle, and make it better. Maybe when you've seen the imperfections that others have seen, you would be able to truly make it perfect (even though I still believe there is no perfection)
I lived way too much in the past, dwelling on it and wishing I could make it better. But what I really needed was to know that at least, the very least, even if I can't have you I'd have something. Something that will remind me how beautiful it was, and how things are. I've seen different facets of you that I couldn't see because of the rose-tinted glasses, but now I do know. I don't like it, but I can't change anything because you're ... you. I'm glad that somehow we're still connected (that means that at least the 0.5% of you looking at me and going "DAMN I LET THAT HOT STUFF GO?!?!" will be achieved ha ha ha!)
But I digressed. Letting go doesn't mean you lose everything - sometimes, it offers a whole new path for more things. I wish you all the best and that you make the right choices. I know everything's going to be okay. You do too.
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