hmm

I think I have finally figured out why I am still single. Okay, maybe not just figured out but come to terms. *shifty* It's because I'm not manly. Like just the other night, someone was saying to me: "You know, you should be more manly. You look so handsome in this photo" and proceeds to drag out a really ugly photo to show me on facebook.

Okay.

To be honest, I have been contemplating that. Making myself more buff, and bulking out a bit more. I know that I will have utmost support from friends if I do so. However, I have never liked to conform to what other people want.

If I want to change something, I'm going to do it for myself, NOT to please somebody else. So if people don't like me because I'm too feminine or girly? I don't care. I am HAPPY with how I am.

But I will change if it means something for me. If I ever get successful in modeling, I know I will need to change my bulk at one point. But that's another story.

Maybe that's why Ryuichi prefers talking to other guys, they more manly and masculine. *sob*

Whatever. :p