dearly beloved.
One of the nicest theme songs, from
Kingdom Hearts. Always makes me feel wistful. :) It's like, the song that's always running through my head whenever I read "Dearly Beloved". The story that I linked a few days ago.
I'm running out of credit again. Rawr!~
Sometimes I can't help but feel that some people are deliberately avoiding me, or ignoring me, or leaving me out from things. Call me insecure, whatever. My feelings. But if you're really going to do that, then erm... fine? It's probably better for both of us anyway. :)
I need a photoshoot soon. Ugh. Getting so much creative juices, my brain is frying. I wanna do one on a harness, any harnesses in kuching? :D And I still want my umbrella editorial. T_T
Labels: ramblings, rants, update
(7/12/2009 11:39:00 PM)
i'm going back to the start.
I just realized how much I love
"The Scientist" - Coldplay. Something's wrong here, I'm falling in love with Coldplay's old songs. Haha! The Scientist and
Yellow are currently my favorite Coldplay songs ever.
:D
Should sleep now.
Labels: ramblings, update
(7/12/2009 01:32:00 AM)
heart wrenched.
Reading
sad stories, and feeling so
emo now. This story is such a
heart-wrencher. It makes me warm and fuzzy, but at the same time cold and detached. :( I need someone, OTL.
Excuse my emoness, I think it's the weather. It seems to be catching. :)
Labels: emo-er
(7/10/2009 10:49:00 PM)
dearly beloved.
I've mentioned this before, but this is
one story that is
worth burning your eyes out for reading. But if you're not a fan of slash pairings, then ... don't.
Labels: update
(7/09/2009 07:51:00 PM)
perseids.
I'm
hungry. And dinner time is like an hour more... D:
Am contemplating cycling... you know, I want a bike like those London black bikes with the little cute basket in front. :D
One day, I want to watch the Northern Lights. And watch the Perseid Meteor Shower. *dream* Northern Hemisphere, I shall visit you one day!
Going cycling now, still waiting for Cass. :D
Labels: everyday life., update
(7/09/2009 04:41:00 PM)
can you tell?
Got this from
Elvanna Raine's blog. I love this person, she's so cute! :D
~ Just a Thought... ~
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest?
It isn't love, it's like.
You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?
It isn't love, it’s lust.
Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
It isn't love, it's luck.
Do you want them because you know they're there?
It isn't love, it's loneliness.
Are you there because it's what everyone wants?
It isn't love, it's loyalty.
Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand?
It isn't love, it's low confidence.
Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt them?
It isn't love, it's pity.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn't love, it's infatuation.
Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?
It isn't love, it's friendship.
Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of?
It isn't love, it's a lie.
Are you willing to give all of your favourite things for their sake?
It isn't love, it's charity.
Does your heart ache and break when they're sad?
Then it's love.
Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong?
Then it's love.
Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's love.
Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there?
Then it's love.
Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are?
Then it's love.
Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully at heart without regret?
Then it's love.
Would you allow them to leave you, not because they want to but because they have to?
Then its love.
Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?
Then it's love.
Would you let them do what they have to or want to do, no matter how much it might hurt you, just to let them learn and understand certain things?
Then it's love.
Would you be willing to let them go because you know there is someone else out there that is better for them than yourself?
Then it's love.
Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love?
I find this quite true. And you know what, I try to go by this. Instinctively, you just know. Or at least, I think I do. :)
(7/08/2009 10:19:00 PM)
it's oh so quiet.
Bjork is addictive. *shifty*
I still can't get over how jiwa "Knocks You Down" is. D: It's kind of like a perfect song.
I miss old times. I don't get it, why do I always keep dwelling on the past? It's like the past is the best, the future is something that I'm not always looking forward to and the present is pure ...not what I want. D: I miss hanging out with Riung, Rauth, Ayun, Cass... just chillin' and bitchin' and doing our thang. -before times changed, fuck.-
I miss hanging out with FION. My goodness, crazy. We have our times. :D
I miss hanging out Sae and Clay, and talking about Godknowswhat.
I miss times with Nicole, who's now so uberfucking busy. D:
I miss going over to Jessica's and learning (or trying to) how to cook.
I miss waiting for Jill and Veyron and Chrislynn and going out to makan, and scolding random stupid annoying lousy drivers.
I miss the solid feel of presence, which ironically, is lacking in the present somehow.
Most of all, I miss having a heart. <3
Labels: emo-er, ramblings, rants
(7/08/2009 12:04:00 AM)